The Razorblade...

This darkness...I have come to know...this solitude...I have forever known...to me..the darkness is the light...
Forever I have known it...forever I will hate it...
This room...this solitude...
Is what my life is...
I once knew the light...but like everything else...it left..
I curse everything....nothing but hate lives here...nothing but solitude...
For how much longer I must stay here I do not know...
But I do know...I hate it...I curse it...it will...kill me..
In the end I will die...alone...
The darkness is laughing at me...mocking me...tempting me...
Before me is a razorblade...the darkness urges me to use it..
To end this suffering...
I pick it up....trembling....and lowers it...
It is not the pain you would think it would be...it is soothing...and peaceful...
As the last pump of my heart...I see light for the first time....
After all...there are some light in the darkness..
I wake up...from the dream...the darkness are still mocking me...
The razorblade no more...
Just the darkness....

Written by Mybrokenwings