Life...an divine blessing..?

Life...
In my eyes..
Is funny..
The possibilities you have...
And the power you have in your mind...
Every time you choose something in your life...to no avail..
It will change you..
No matter what you do...
Part of me wishes I had done more in my life..
Another part wishes that I had not lived at all...
In the end...
Is there a divine being..
Which will judge me?...
And how..
Can this divine being know...
If I am good or bad?..
Are these not just words?...
Simple words made up by human design..
I think..
In my life...
I have been both...
I don't think there is one soul in this universe that have not done anything bad...
More or less...
In my eyes..
What have I ever done to deserve to live?..
To deserve this blessed gift of understanding and feelings?...
In my eyes...
To live or not..
I would have chosen the latter..
What good can one man ever do?...
What good can I do?...
These words I can now consider...
These are my dying mind's last words..
Yes..
Indeed...
Life is funny..

-Mybrokenwings